A new start.

It's the very beginning of August already.

I don't really have much thought for now... just wondering what happens if time stops. I mean, time, you're just flying too fast. Slow down will you?

As time passes by, I'm getting closer and closer to the assignment duedates. As time passes by, I'm getting closer and closer to ending the semester. And as time passes by, I'm getting even closer to my next semester, which is my internship. Scary! I don't wanna go there.




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Little bit.

I'm feeling soooooo sleepy right now.

I got no meeting today. Thank god. BUT! I still gotta do work.

Early morning. Went online to check my mail... downloaded some files from group members, and did the final editing. So much to edit men! Thank goodness I figured out how to do pie charts and graphs in Micro Slides... took me some time to figure that shit out.

Then after that, I had lunch. And continued doing my work...till evening, then went out for dinner. I guess I'm supposed to continue doing my work now, but nah... no way. I want some time for myself. So, I gotta and have to do it tomorrow morning, before I leave the house to see baby.

The time is like flying so fast. Next Wednesday will have to go back to college already. My next Monday and Tuesday will be filled with meetings. I can't even get that last 2 days of break before college starts men! What the hell. I don't care, I need to get my pair of shoes before Wednesday! Sigh.. really have to fish out some time for another shopping. Anyone with me?




Night.

Got it!

I'm so happy today. And I feel so satisfied!

Well. This morning I did have meeting...as usual. But then, meeting didn't stop me from having fun. Meeting ended at 1.45pm. So after meeting, I went back home for lunch. After awhile, I went out again to OU - for shopping! Heheh.

Yes, went there with Mandy at 4pm+. Walked walked and walked. And finally, I get to buy the jeans I wanted! And I think it fits me. Lol. After that, we went to quite a lot of cosmetic shops to look for cosmetics. I bought myself a brand new shimmery lip gloss which is really nice, and also a new nail polish. It's a very special blue, and I love it so much. I just put it on my nails. Lol.. Went Wong Kok for dinner after that. Yummy food. Then we headed to look for more cosmetics till 7.30pm, we both went home.

I didn't use much money eventhough I shop, as I spend wisely..? Lol. They're cheaper things. So yea. I got what I want. But oh, not my shoes. Sigh. Maybe...next month, or after a few more months. Hmm.

And I get to see baby earlier, spent some time with him.



I feel totally energized. And I'm ready to take tomorrow's challenge.. and meetings. Damn!

Start back.

After some rest the last weekend, I got back to work today.

Drove to Jaya 1 this morning for AM meeting. Same old place, at Old Town. Did I mention that I saw Bao? No, I didn't. Lol. I actually forgotten that he studies in UTAR, which is so near Jaya 1. And I bumped into him right at Old Town, he was having meeting there with his friends too. By the way, meeting was ok. Quite productive I guess..? The meeting ended quite early also. Was supposed to discuss till about 2pm, but then we finished at 12.30pm.

I gotta rush to OU after that, also one of the reason why it ended early. Rushed to OU for IMC meeting. Went there with Maine. Reached OU about 2pm, on the way, I fetched Sandra to uptown. IMC meeting was doomed, but not in a bad way. Just that we don't have the complete tabulation, so we couldn't do anything just yet. But another meeting was arranged to really complete everything. Since we couldn't do anything, we went to walk around OU! Lol. Thought of nothing but shopping. But oh well, I didn't get to buy what I wanna buy - my jeans. Sob. I bought a casual hippy dress from Ruffey i.d. instead, for RM15 only. Hehe.

On the other hand, oh my god! CCS haven't have any meeting yet men.. what the hell. I'm so ready for meeting! I did all the research and findings already, since don't know when... feel like I'm so wasting time, when the group can and should by now finish up 3 quarters of the assignment.




CEP individual assignment is annoying. The lecturer IS annoying. With the British accent... it's just so hard to get her damn approval. Shitz.

One + 2

Simple.

Simple enough.

Simple enough to be our 1 year and 2 months.

25.07.09.

I love you.

Feeling bone.

Ok. My fever and all is gone. Except coughing.

Shouldn't have ate nuggets yesterday night... but my appetite was just so big yesterday, after I feel completely ok.

Right now, I feel like I don't even have the slightest energy. I lost 3kg in such a short period of time. I have no energy, no mood, nothing.

But... bones.

I'm still sick... why?! Hate it.

No no no. Please no.

Shit. I feel sick.
Could it be H1N1?? My god. I keep on thinking about it.
I got this sick feeling after awhile when I left the basketball court with baby... sigh.
My throat is already itchy since yesterday.

But not the sick feeling, where my whole body feels weak..and tired..and a little aching.


My god! Please no.. *fingers crossed*




Doing CEP biscuit design now. Seriously, I feel so grateful I can design, all thanks to Mab. It's the right thing to ask her - the "consumer's" opinion on what packaging she would like or would attract her to the product. Lol. Pretty simple design, but it looks good for a biscuit.. I think. And easy for me to do. But the container... argh, still can't design that. Sob.

I'm not a designer, obviously.




I wanna go to bed. But no, must finish my work first... sigh.


Please get well soon, I must go shopping at OU tomorrow with Mandy.

Gambateh.

Appy!

I got a new phone! Hehe. So happy...

Baby brought me to Digital Mall this afternoon. To buy my phone. Lol. Oh well, for this time, I buy the phone with my own savings men.. a little heartbroken when I went to the bank to withdraw some money.. Sob. But! The phone is really worth. Original price was RM365. But because I sold my phone back to the seller to pay for the phone I wanted to get, which my old stupid hang phone managed to be sold for RM200, the remaining amount I had to pay was only RM165. Only RM165! Haha.. I've never in my life felt so satisfied before. It's damn cheap. I only pay that little amount of money for a walkman phone... Hmm.



By the way. I'm supposed to do my work today. But just because I got a new phone, I didn't do my work at all. As usual... play with my phone, put songs, pictures.. bla bla bla. Lol. And I so can't wait to see baby tomorrow! Lol.

The unexpected funny.

Oh well.

College is fun. Haha.. Some people are just so cute and weird. And the funny thing is that, you actually noticed him somehow, but not on purpose at all, but you didn't know that he had been noticing you also. Until today, went to him randomly just to ask him to fill up the survey, and actually got up to his class to get more respondents, I got all the attention when he was trying to approach me, made other guy friends of his went "wooing" and "aaahhhiing". Lol.

Thanks to Sherman, he got his name from Ms.Jo. What men! Hehe, crazy Sherman.





I've nothing towards all that at all. Just that it's so funny, and it's something that can make me laugh. And when college work really gets into my nerves, this can cheer me up a little... the incident.





I love my baby.

Suffocated.

My heart... what does it say?
It tells me... it will come to an end.
Or it says... I wanna end it?


I couldn't decide.
Am I happy or am I not?
What is it that I want?
Isn't it supposed to be happy than torturing?
I do really feel torturing... I can't breathe.
I feel like I really need to break away from all this...
But at the same time, I never wanna let this go.

What exactly do I want out of it?


Why am I feeling like this?


I wanna cry...





I wanna cry...


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I wanna cry.

And to be alone.

With no one else with me, in me.

Doomed.

Wanna know why?

Here's why.



God. I hate talking about it men. Well, not hate, but.. dislike. Hmm.
Oh well. My lecturer was grouping people in class for our upcoming group assignment that she'll give this Wednesday.

Fine. Already expected it. And there's more to come.

But what's not fine is that... I'm being grouped with people that couldn't work and contribute at all. There's also someone weird and annoying. And majority of them are classmates that I've not spoken to before. Seriously. How am I supposed to work with... them? Obviously, there're no bonds at all. And secondly, it just doesn't feel right! I've really never thought that this day will come. Sigh.






Yes yes, I know. Be rational. Stuck my ass up and work, no matter what... got that. Hmm. Don't give a damn ler... should be positive. Look forward. And work well. I can do it!

Red as our hearts.

"Hi baby.."

"Hi baby!"

*kisses*

"Bee, close your eyes."

"Huh?? But.. why?"

"Faster close your eyes first..."

*closed my eyes.. then open back*

"Ee.. see! Why you open your eyes?? Faster close!"

*then I closed back my eyes*

"Nah baby"

Lol. Was indeed very happy and touched! Baby gave me flower for the very first time... it's one rose. It's just so nice and sweet of him to buy me that. He gave that to me right before we head off to ss2 for lunch. Hmm. Thank you baby! Muaks.

Well, it's Mab's advanced birthday celebration today... so baby and I just hung out at my place for a few hours, then he had to go already. It's a chilling Saturday for me today.. pretty relaxing. Did nothing much. Went to OU for the celebration.. bought a new tight top, then went back home.





By the way. Yesterday - Joanne's birthday party was crazy. I went back home at 4am in the morning. Went to the party super late, as I had to wait for YT to fetch me, and she was stuck in a very bad jam. Then we led others to Joanne's place, arrived there about 8.45pm, when the party was supposed to start at 7.40pm. So yea, had dinner. After awhile, more and more of them came, then only the party got started, as in, really starting. We played silly games, cards.. and DRINK. All the games, it was nothing but drinking. Hmm. Had beer, and well.. liquor. But just a little, and it was enough for me to feel a little wobbly. Hehe.

After a few hours, left just a few of us. We got nothing to do, so we decided to walk out to the playground near Joanne's house. It was...2.30am, I guess. That late. I was alreay very sleepy! But didn't wanna miss the fun, had to depend on YT also anyway, so yea. Went to the park, chit-chatted.. play around.. drink a little. Then everyone called off the party about 3.45am. Then CK fetched me home.

Was super duper tired after that. And the next morning I woke up, my stomach and my throat felt so bad, because of the alcohol. No appetite as well. And I realized that I can't be a night-life person.. eventhough I really want to! Damn. It's just too tiring for me men.. I can't stand it. But well, it was fun.. Lol.






Thank god parents didn't nag or scold. At all.

Stuck. Again.

Can somebody give me some ideas on how to write this essay in front of me??

I just can't think.




Damn it.

Tit-bits.

As I remember, your body was so stiff.
And icy.
It hurts even harder when you moved away.
Made my body being pushed away from you.

It really is something that will make me remember for life, I guess.

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Sheew. Forget it. It's over... forget it.











By the way. Class was until 3pm today. So after class, went to Tropicana City with college mates. Watched Ice Age 3. Oh well, it's a really funny and cute movie, but I wouldn't say it's a great movie. It's pretty crap I have to say... it's just plainly funny. Yea.

Hmm. Class tomorrow starts at 9am again! Till 6pm. Fuck.















I wanna go shopping. I mean, I need to go shopping.

What I call awesome.

This is just a damn nice and bloody cool movie. Damn! I love it so damn much! Arghz. Must get the dvd.

The movie was really long, but seriously, I didn't feel tired or bored sitting in the cinema watching it for so long, close to 2 and a half hours. It was just so damn awesome. The effects were so powerful, the songs by Green Day is so nice to listen to... and Megan Fox is freaking hot and sexy. Really loving her.

By the way. Watched it with baby at Tropicana City.




Love love love Transformers. Best shit ever.

Updates + Craps.

Feel so nice to have my own laptop! Love it so much. It's my new baby, I have to say. Hehe.

Oh well. College is fine, same old.

I really can't wait for my 3 weeks long holidays, which will start somewhere in the middle of this month. But then, I have a feeling that during that 3 weeks of holidays, I'll still have to stay home and do my assignment. As in, a lot of assignments, because my lecturers haven't give us any real assignment...yet. In which where, they'll be giving all of them right before the holidays. For sure. Damn.




I wanna watch Transformers. Give me the goddamn tickets! Sigh.

And I don't know why. Just recently, I'm really into Megan Fox. Not that I'm becoming a lesbian or what (I'm obviously not), but... I just find her so hot and nice to look at. Lol.




Transformers! Transformers! Transformerrrrrssss....! Sob.